再过几个小时就是牛年了！！！ 在这里让我祝大家新年快乐，牛年行大运！！！

Firstly, thanks for all the taggings...My friends are GREAT! I love the hospi girls spirit! I am not sad at all la, i only sounded emo...like what tingting said...lol. I'm just wondering why everytime like that, always no outcome de...haha...maybe i'm too stupid for those clever people la...just like today, linking of web pages i also blur...and worse, he don't even understand what i was asking...OMG. I really have this super super big problem of expressing myself. If ever there is this "Self-expression" module, i'm gonna fail for sure! Heng don't have... Ok, hope tomorrow will be fine!

I know, i know, i know, it's impossible, it's impossible. It's just wishful thinking. I lie, to myself, to the people around me. I am hurting myself the most, and i get nothing out of it. Approach? A no for me. If the last thing that i want to know, it is the answer. The feelings that i had 3 years ago is coming back, and the strength is comparable. But this time round, it's gonna be a "sure lose" case. I know i will lose the bet, lose this game again. I don't want to be involved in this game, but i am sinking in it, and worse, i am getting deeper and deeper. I hate it, but i have no choice. A sickening action can catch my attention. Sickening. Why? Out of all the whole wide world, why? I should open myself to more choices, better ones. But, this is me, once i'm stuck onto something, that's it. It's getting late and i should stop. Hope it's gonna be fine tomorrow.

Ok, this is the 2nd post of the day...this has gt something to do with Christmas too...though ours is a small office, but we do exchange gifts too! and i really love the gifts lots lots! See see...

Handphone holder! Cute!

This chocolate is very "Atas" manz...

And it really taste GREAT!

Teddy bear coin bank! Cutez...

And... ... last but not least... all of us get this! So special and so cute! Somemore it's personalised! Thanks thanks my 大哥!

This is a memo clip! And it's from Takashimaya, so i guess it's rather "Atas" too...

The most surprise part was that there was this once where i asked my 大哥 where he bought this cute teddy bear memo clip that he sticked on his CPU (cos its magnetic) and he said that was given to him by his friends... And now he get this for us as X'mas gifts...haha, i must have given him some 灵感...Hahahaha...

Today is Christmas... This yr i received the most gifts...i must say that i LOVE all the gifts! Thanks everyone...We had our X'mas celebration last Sat and we had lots of food and fun! Especially the "Angel and Mortal" game, which was fun just that we were culeless of the rules and complicated it...lol...ok, let the photos tell you the story of the night!

Ok, these are all that i can upload...i am so lazy to upload all...the rest refer to my yuexin's photo bucket...

Your smile is so deeply printed in my mind, yet it makes me feel so uneasy...

Yesterday I had a great night with ting, joyce and klaire. Haha...was really wonderful cos it's been a while since i meet up my dear tingting...heard from xl that she was reduced to skin and bones...scare me...Yes, she did slimed down a bit, but not to the extent of skin and bones la...aiyo...lol. Went Makansutra, then flyer, then suntec...it's our first time being there, and that tingting was like: "ai yer, thought got something to see, but end up arm so so..." lol. The fun part was that we were the last customer of Cotton On, that the shopkeeper had to lift the shutter for us to get out of the shop! Real funny...cos they were trying on the hats, which ting referred to it as "straw hat!"...haha. Wa, when we were abt to leave, the whole suntec was like in a dark, cos the lights were off! Haha..and we were like laughing away because of that joyce's joke la...the "你好吗？好久不见" joke...haha...until now i can still laugh. Ok, this are the photos of the day:

They were like saying that i very "bu shou" with the orang utan...haha...

"Santa Clause is coming to town...", "Frosty, the snow man...", "Gingle bells, gingle bells, gingle all the way...", "Last Christmas, I gave you my heart, but the very next day, you gave it away..." Christmas is coming! I had never celebrated Christmas before, just had some fun with my friends that's all. But, this year i had the urge to celebrate! But sad to say, i think i won't be able to find people to celebrate with me...sob sob...I know that there will be this celebration with the girls, but it's not on the 24th...sob sob...hiaz, my Christmas is gonna be a lonely one...Haha... Anyway, I have decorated my office table! Simple one but got the Christmas atmosphere! :)

Nice nice... I find the both of them very cute...but i think the santa clause is cuter! Ger, it's a small suprise for you cos you are great to lend me your dress...hope you like it. :)

Ok...one more thing...as i was taking photos of these 2 decorations, i realised something...Oops!

Hahahaha...this is my junk food hidden behind my desktop...haha. Cos i scare my office people will laugh at me ma...so i hide it lor...Now i remembered something very funny...There was once (last month) my com was down and he has to help me revive my com, haha...and when he moved my desktop and CPU... ... hahaha...i guess he must be thinking: "Ee yer, how come this girl eat so much...tsk tsk tsk..." LOL. I guess it's time to exercise!

The "big day" was finally OVER!!! I am so happy...was really stressed up for the past 2 weeks...Finally i can take a breath of fresh air. Took lots of photos during the 3 days, but i'm afraid that i can't post all due to some reasons...Ok, these are some of the photos:

Last but not least, Ger, thank you for lending me your dress, it's a last min decision and yet you helped me, THANKS!

Another late night entry. I love to post entries late at night, where my feelings all flow up up into my mind, gust into my heart and sweep away all my senses. It is at this critical moment that i feel i have the courage to face all realities, all undercovered feelings. I know avoiding is a friend of coward, but i feel that it is worth it so long as you don't get hurt. Bleeding is worse off than anything on earth, because the blood may take one moment, one year, a couple of years, or never dry at all. No one wants to get hurt, not you, not me. Babies cry when they fall, but adults like us may not cry, cos we may hide all unhappiness within us until it becomes a source of devastation, a deep hole that can never be filled. Since from the start you know that you cannot make it to the finishing line and becomes a champion, why not weave your white flag at the very start? It is better to give up before anything else falls apart, and you get yourself injure. Since you know nothing will comes out of it and you will not get any returns, why should you still invest in it? Silly, foolish, stupid, dumwit, no-brainer are those words that can be used to decribe a person who don't believe those mentioned above. I choose to take my stand, and i choose to believe. Yes, all of you can say that i am telling a lie, but the fact is that i choose to believe in it. I had enough of all these, i want to have a change. I do not want to be the loser again, i want to be the winner. I am trying bery hard to convince myself, to persuade myself. But, can i accomplish it?

It's a crazy me to update my blog at this critical hour meant for sleeping...anyway, again i have broken my promise to update my blog often, but please bear with me, cos i have my reasons...I was really tired everyday after work that i can barely keep my eyes open when i bathe. Guys, no kidding ok, every word that i mentioned are true! I think that's because i have been studying for like 10+ odd years and haven't really adapt to the working life. Worse, i was down with sore throat, fever, flu, cough for the whole of this week (now left flu and cough). Mine is a small office and yet there are 2 people falling sick! OMG, i seriously thinks that the weather is really bad, so much so that people do get sick easily. But 2 people falling sick at the same time (both of us fell sick on Mon) is not a bad thing either, at least we can get to offer one another Panadols, Strepsils, Plum juice etc etc...LOL. THANKS ALOT FOR YOUR MEDICINE & JUICE, I REALLY APPRECIATED IT! Ok, sidetrack abit, I MISS SCHOOL! I MISS NYP! I miss the fish soup in koufu too...it was damn nice la, though xuanli always say that the person who was cooking the fish soup has oily hair! Haha...I miss my lecturers too! Not to mention names, my idol too! Heng i have the pic in my hp, so that at least i won't forget how my idol looks like! LOL!

Hi guys, OMG, it's been such a loooong time since i last updated my blog. Sorry to those who read my blog frequently...like Ger...haha. Okok, i shall update! But but but, where should i start with? Alamak, so many things had happened. Ok, the big news! Not that i'm attached, relax, but...My cousin had given birth to her baby boy last Tuesday! Congrats. Her baby is chubby and cute...i shan't post the photo here, if you all want to see i can let you all see when we meet up. Ok, about myself. Hmmm...what else can i say? All i do everyday is work, eat, watch a bit of TV and sleep. Ok, Sat sometimes go shopping, but that's all. Driving? Hmmm...Uncle treated me to tea-o yesterday! Cos he said that i can do my parking well...haha...hmmm, i don't think so lor, i think is he himself wants to drink! Haha...kidding. Actually now i realised that i am a real busy person, cos my time and schedule is like really pack. Not only do i have to work , but sometimes during the night i still have to learn driving. That's why next week i only learn on Sat, cos v sian. Oh yes, talking about yesterday, my parents bought a "车车" aka baby walker for my cousin's baby...the 车车 was very cute! Actually i love kids alot, so maybe i should save up a bit and buy her baby some toys the next time round when we go visit my aunty. Ok, shall stop here, byebye!

OMG! I'm still blogging at this super late hour...3.10am! Bo bian, had things to do...I really don't wanna see you in dark eye circles tomorrow leh... Should i wear shade to work tmr? Haha...Hmmmm...actually is not tmr, is later la...alamak. Hope that it's a 2-person-journey for lunch later...hahahahahahahahahaha...crazy liao.

Hi peeps! It's been such a looooooooong time since i last touch on this blog. Looks like i have neglected it! Oops. Updates updates!

Has been working for a month. And yes, i have started learning driving! FUN! Though i have only attended 2 lessons, but i think that i can really drive liao. Haha. Cos auto cars are meant to be easier.

Shopping? Has been doing lots of shopping since i started working. I guess it's because i have a mindset that since i am earning, i can spend! I know this sounds wrong, but i just cannot resist! Look, i've bought a lot these few weeks:
- cardigan & jackets
- t-shirt from OP (since there is a 20% discount)
- belts
- watches
- bags to match with my formal wear (cos ht said that my bag v ugly, don't match with formal wear)
- formal pants
- shorts (cos the old one looks v old)

Wow, look at the list above. Frankly speaking, i feel good after every buys, but after that i feel guilty, cos i spent a lot.

Today v sad, cos birdshit dropped onto my cardigan! OMG. I think i have to think twice before agreeing to go out buy lunch tomorrow. Haha.

I have to go sleep le, if not tomorrow sleep in bus...LOL!

Hi everyone, wow, time flies fast, it has been 2 weeks since we started our IPP... Went out with xiuhui yesterday, bought a lot of things... and i mean a lot... but all are necessary items, and most importantly, all are discounted items! Haha. Discounted items are the best, as you can get the best goods with the best deals. Oh ya, and i FINALLY used the ice-cream coupon! After about 1 year, i finally used it. We had waffler at there too, cos i was too paiseh to just exchange for the ice-cream and leave...lol. Anyway, had a fun shopping trip yesterday, cos i have a lot of "shou huo" and chatted a lot! Frankly speaking, i really talked a lot yesterday, cos yesterday night i chatted on the phone with ht all the way from MRT train to my house! Really have a lot to catch up... Haha... and this is the pic of the nice nice waffler:

Ok, before i start going on and on, let me declare this first... there are 2 parts to this entry, part 1 and 2. Part 1 is dedicated to YOU, and Part 2 to The Gang of 5! (See guys, i didn't forget you all, i save the best for the last!)

Part 1

Ok, let me recall what you have done for the past 1 year since the first day we know each other... the first impression that you gave me is that you are COOL! To be frank, though you gave me a good first impression, but i didn't really like you initially, cos you are like "a thousands miles away from everyone", but things changed after all of us get to know each other better... I know i always never fail to step into the "grand room", but you also never fail to attempt to each and every single of my request. If i'm not wrong, i must have been the first one to look for you among your "kids". Oh well, you are like a piece of iceberg all the while, until the start of sem 2... ... I really wonder what knocks you during the holidays, that made a drastic change in you after sem 1's holidays... you seemed to open up, FINALLY! You converse to us in a variety of languages, crack "cold and lame" jokes with us, display your real self: "the kaypoh side of you", show even more concern for us, suddenly know all of our names, slow down during your "tutu train-style" talking to check with me if i can catch it, show concern during exams (this one touched me the most until today...just that i didn't cry), and many many more. WHY? Why the sudden change? But frankly speaking, it's a good thing that you changed, cos you changed for the better! In case you don't know, you are an idol to most people! (hey, i have prove, trust me) Sometimes i really do wonder, what did you consume when you were young... should find out from you if i have the chance. Ok, sorry for the sidetrack, back to main topic... You never fails to display an "iceberg" look, even in sem 2, but, i never fails to make you laugh! (i have prove too!) Too bad, i am a born-to-be joker, where i can make people laugh even though i did not open my mouth, cos i have a variety of GREAT expressions on my face! I have defeated you! The girls have been issuing me with "missions", which i have passed all the time. Hahahaha. Not an easy task actually. Sometimes i really wonder what is your face made up of, a different type of skin from us which is inelastic, so much so that you can't smile? It's been such a long journey till now, that we are half-graduate (we will not step into NYP's lect theater or tutorial rooms to have lessons anymore), you have left a deep impression in me, i'm not sure for the rest, but to me yes! To make the impression deeper, you actually gave me a "BIG GIFT" on my last day in sch. Though you sounded sacrastic, but it was really funny! Haha... thank you, thank you for "wishing me all the best for my IPP" and your "hmm hmm hmm (high-pitched laughing sound)" hahahaha, this made me accomplished my last and final mission given to me by the girls. Well, i did this without any effort, should i clap for myself? Haha. I can see that you are in a great mood, if not you will not take the effort and initiative to U-turn and talk to me. Anyway, thanks a lot (this was what i have been saying to you everytime you helped me) for the things that you have done for us, or rather for me. You are great! I know that there are people out there who don't really like you, but never mind, it's they don't know how to appreciate. Haha. Thank you! See you in 5 months time!

Part 2

Ok, it's The Gang of 5's time!!! I am a great friend ok, cos i save the best for the last. To be frank, my poly life's memories have been mostly formed in year 2 and 3, after i entered hospi. You guys really made my day, my months, and now my year! Yes, it's been 2 years since we are together. I can still remember the first day when we stepped into the "cold" class where we only know each other (the 5 of us) and nobody else. That was when we started our gang-of-5 journey. We had common topics, common jokes, common secrets, common "kaypoh styles", and many more... I enjoyed the days! Though part of the credits goes to him, but it's we who created this great piece of jigsaw puzzle, everything will not be possible without our efforts. We did lots of stupid and silly things that i can still laugh now when i thought of it: being PIs after sch and all rushed to the carpark just to get to the bottom of some facts which we were interested to know, gossip here and there about all the "adults" (which we still do it now), always step into the "grand room" so much so that we became sooo popular among all the adults and many many more. Of course, we had our hard times too: doing projects in sch until the lights shuts out (so far there is only 1 adult who is capable of coming up with such projects), sleepless nights just to get projects done (we msn each other while working), having no time to prepare for our countless presentations, having to prepare tutorial questions in class (which we either turn it into a chatting session or we didn't prepare beforehand at all) and many many more. We have shared a lot: happiness, sad, tough, nervous, relax, fun, crazy and many monents together. I really missed and appreciated all that. You guys bring life to my hospi life by sharing all these moments with me. I'm sure that you guys will also have the same feelings too. We have came a long journey, that now we have to "temporary part" with each other. We have to bid byebye to the days that we had in NYP, cos like what i've mentioned earlier on, we will not have lessons in sch anymore, mush less to say about projects and working together. Guys, thank you for bringing colours to my poly life, poly life wouldn't have been so GREAT without you all! For the time being must keep in touch ok. Thank you! See you all in 5 months time!

This is the trip to the museum (for desti project)

This is the trip to the art gallery (for leisure module)

This was taken on the cruise!

For this final piece, having fun during NTUC National Day event! (for events module) (Btw, i "steal" this pic from ger...haha)

"Eh, u dao me!" is the sentence that i wanted to say to him...haha. Today saw him 3 times in sch within a few hours. The moment i reached sch, i saw him. I was only 2 footsteps away from him and i even lifted up my head to look at him. Guess wat, he tilted and turn his head away as if never see me and opened the staffroom door...so dao man. So near liao still dao me...expect me to call him meh...so i dao him back and we dao together...LOL. Aft that went for lunch at koufu, guess wat, i saw him again, like only within 1 hour...alamak. This time round he did not see me...or did he act blur? Who cares. Aft lunch we went library and we stayed for about 2 hours. As we were about to leave at 4 smth, ht or xl (i forgt) wanted to borrow books, so we went to the kiosk. AND... i was dealing with my $10 bag which had spoiled cos the zip was broken when i heard a guy's voice saying "hello" and the girls replied. When i lifted up my head, can only see his back...once again, i didn't make eye contact with him...haha. But i was thinking: wa, he so free ah, gt time to walk all the way to library cafe to buy coffee. And ht was like saying "eh, change your bag la, see la, because of your spoiled bag u missed the chance of seeing him..." haha...should i blame my bag? haha...no, i won't change my bag...not now. Fated that today is the dao day...LOL. Ok, enough of this dao man. Change topic. Aft sch went Causeway point with xl and ht. Was only a short 2 hour plus trip, but it made me happy! Haha..went swensens eat and chat, and aft that went a boutique shop try on the clothes...all that xl's idea la...haha. Note: we all tried the same piece of dress..lol. We were like toying around with the dress and ended up didn't buy anything! Haha. OMG...i feel a bit paiseh la, but that xl say it's ok. Ok jiu ok lor, anyway the shop assistant won't recognise us, it's ht that she will recognise...cos we didn't go there often! Oops! haha. Though we were pandas from the loss of sleep, we were happy pandas! hahahaha.

Logans now...at this hour? I have been eating fruits in the middle of the night these few days. Weird. Fruits can make me more relax or rather 清凉(as always mentioned by ht)? HOPE SO! SO THAT I NO NEED TO FAINT! Bananas, Durian puffs, Logans, so on and so forth...haha... fruity mind makes a better me! (what am i talking?)

今天看了一部大概 7、8 年前的电影《芭啦芭啦樱之花》，真的好怀念。。。当时的我才念小五、六，一转眼已经那么大了。当中的“唯一色彩”唤醒了我许多的回忆。看来我真的是老了许多。。。哈哈。还记得当时的我思想是那么的单纯，如今却成熟了许多。。。还记得当时的我甚至想当华文老师，如今却转换了跑道。。。还记得当时的我因为是高年级的关系，而天真地认为六年级很“高”，且带有点“狐假虎威”的感觉， 直到今天才了解真正的最“高”是什么， 哈哈。。。还记得当时的我。。。 。。。这证明这些年来我都在成长，在不知不觉的情况下慢慢的成长。想回来还真奇妙，但这也同时证明了“时间能够改变人”的说法。。。至于成熟，那则是一个好的改变。

Quite a while since i've been here, because i simply have no extra time to do extra things other than sleep and eat? Thought of retail therapy today, nah, and it turns out to be "mua chi" instead. An excellent decision-switcher. Well, that's what i'm capable of, no choice, i'm born with it. Was real busy, but i do take a look at my surroundings at times...lots of things happened lately...everyday has happenings. Ever since school reopened after the 2 weeks break, lots of projects are being "shoot" at us, where we were forced to face them and not suppose to defend. School life is still the same, just that i didn't really get to see what i hope to see? Haha... I simply need entertainment, like eating, music, peppermint green tea and so on. Exams timetable is out, and its drawing near... can you hear HD's heartbeat? By the way, this is what we look like now: