I don't wanna face it, i don't wanna blog, i feel like shutting myself up in my little corner where i can hide from anything that falls from the sky, that i feel is adding weight on me all the time... ...

XJ

I am back from the bintan trip a week ago...initially wanted to upload all the photos here, but ended up uploaded on facebook. Wanted to upload here as well, but was way tooooo lazy la. Recently v busy, driving la, uni stuffs, find jobs...all and all... sian. Oh well, After dear tingting reminded me, i realised that i do have a lot of March babies friends! Haha... So, i have to spend a big buck! Hahahaha... So far i know of these dates: 14th, 18th and 20th...so far these are the ones that i keep in touch, actually there are more! Looks like pisces and aquarius are "meant to be" manz...haha! Happy advance birthday to all the March babies!

This is dedicated to someone who didn't even know the existence of this poor blog of mine... ...

6 months has passed, and i can still vividly remember the first day when i reached the office... I was so blur and shy that i felt myself was like a mimosa. You gave me a shocked by telling me that we came from the same "big family". Well, this goes to show that NYP has history ok.

You gave me a good first impression, and this last till today. Though at times you do make me disagree with your actions and mindset, but overall i gave you an A. All these goes to your effort of helping me all these while, especially at times where i was most upset and down. Sometimes i don't dare to look into your eyes especially when i've made a mistake, but you never fail to tolerate my mistakes and clear up all the "mess" for me.

As you all know, good impression is not build up within one day, but months, and even years. We would have been on better terms if she didn't appear. Ok, this is call fate.

Back to present, today was not a wasted day for me cos at least i have the chance to bid farewell to you, though a short and wet journey to the bus stop, but i appreciated it a lot. I think i have fallen deep into it, but i am trying to draw myself out of it. I know i will not be seeing you anytime soon, so for the time being, thank you for all that you've done and all the best to your exams!!!

Before i end my entry, let me upload a few photos that i felt it's worth uploading...

Have you all came across "priceless" waffle? Heehee...i've just eaten that this afternoon!!! Yummy......

This was from Prima Deli, actually nothing special la, just a normal plain waffle...but to me it's very very very very very special!!! Heehee...Only people who understands me will know why!

Today i was very busy the whole day, run here and there like mad girl, one moment need to handle the food, one moment on the phone, one moment print notes, one moment refill water, one moment wash the plates used to hold the food...omg, without dc around was a terror! Heng dc came to my rescue in the afternoon! I will always remember this "辛苦你了"... I can sense that i am smiling like a fool in front of the com now manz... hopeless girl.

I'm officially 20 as of today! I feel i'm so old now...haha. Had a great time for both yesterday and today! Many thanks to those who sent their blessings, regardless of through sms, facebook or in person. I must specially thanked my dear tingting, you made my day special! Thanks my dear! I shall upload some of the photos taken!

See...the happy me with an angbao!!!

Had dinner with my family at 店小二...

My bro helped my took these silly photos!!! LOL!

And... ... My favourite duck!!!

My bro said that this background was nice, so insist of taking this photo! Haha...quite nice actually...

Oh well, there goes my 15 Feb... Have to wait till next year!!!

再过几个小时就是牛年了！！！ 在这里让我祝大家新年快乐，牛年行大运！！！

Firstly, thanks for all the taggings...My friends are GREAT! I love the hospi girls spirit! I am not sad at all la, i only sounded emo...like what tingting said...lol. I'm just wondering why everytime like that, always no outcome de...haha...maybe i'm too stupid for those clever people la...just like today, linking of web pages i also blur...and worse, he don't even understand what i was asking...OMG. I really have this super super big problem of expressing myself. If ever there is this "Self-expression" module, i'm gonna fail for sure! Heng don't have... Ok, hope tomorrow will be fine!

I know, i know, i know, it's impossible, it's impossible. It's just wishful thinking. I lie, to myself, to the people around me. I am hurting myself the most, and i get nothing out of it. Approach? A no for me. If the last thing that i want to know, it is the answer. The feelings that i had 3 years ago is coming back, and the strength is comparable. But this time round, it's gonna be a "sure lose" case. I know i will lose the bet, lose this game again. I don't want to be involved in this game, but i am sinking in it, and worse, i am getting deeper and deeper. I hate it, but i have no choice. A sickening action can catch my attention. Sickening. Why? Out of all the whole wide world, why? I should open myself to more choices, better ones. But, this is me, once i'm stuck onto something, that's it. It's getting late and i should stop. Hope it's gonna be fine tomorrow.

Ok, this is the 2nd post of the day...this has gt something to do with Christmas too...though ours is a small office, but we do exchange gifts too! and i really love the gifts lots lots! See see...

Handphone holder! Cute!

This chocolate is very "Atas" manz...

And it really taste GREAT!

Teddy bear coin bank! Cutez...

And... ... last but not least... all of us get this! So special and so cute! Somemore it's personalised! Thanks thanks my 大哥!

This is a memo clip! And it's from Takashimaya, so i guess it's rather "Atas" too...

The most surprise part was that there was this once where i asked my 大哥 where he bought this cute teddy bear memo clip that he sticked on his CPU (cos its magnetic) and he said that was given to him by his friends... And now he get this for us as X'mas gifts...haha, i must have given him some 灵感...Hahahaha...

Today is Christmas... This yr i received the most gifts...i must say that i LOVE all the gifts! Thanks everyone...We had our X'mas celebration last Sat and we had lots of food and fun! Especially the "Angel and Mortal" game, which was fun just that we were culeless of the rules and complicated it...lol...ok, let the photos tell you the story of the night!

Ok, these are all that i can upload...i am so lazy to upload all...the rest refer to my yuexin's photo bucket...

Your smile is so deeply printed in my mind, yet it makes me feel so uneasy...

Yesterday I had a great night with ting, joyce and klaire. Haha...was really wonderful cos it's been a while since i meet up my dear tingting...heard from xl that she was reduced to skin and bones...scare me...Yes, she did slimed down a bit, but not to the extent of skin and bones la...aiyo...lol. Went Makansutra, then flyer, then suntec...it's our first time being there, and that tingting was like: "ai yer, thought got something to see, but end up arm so so..." lol. The fun part was that we were the last customer of Cotton On, that the shopkeeper had to lift the shutter for us to get out of the shop! Real funny...cos they were trying on the hats, which ting referred to it as "straw hat!"...haha. Wa, when we were abt to leave, the whole suntec was like in a dark, cos the lights were off! Haha..and we were like laughing away because of that joyce's joke la...the "你好吗？好久不见" joke...haha...until now i can still laugh. Ok, this are the photos of the day:

They were like saying that i very "bu shou" with the orang utan...haha...

"Santa Clause is coming to town...", "Frosty, the snow man...", "Gingle bells, gingle bells, gingle all the way...", "Last Christmas, I gave you my heart, but the very next day, you gave it away..." Christmas is coming! I had never celebrated Christmas before, just had some fun with my friends that's all. But, this year i had the urge to celebrate! But sad to say, i think i won't be able to find people to celebrate with me...sob sob...I know that there will be this celebration with the girls, but it's not on the 24th...sob sob...hiaz, my Christmas is gonna be a lonely one...Haha... Anyway, I have decorated my office table! Simple one but got the Christmas atmosphere! :)

Nice nice... I find the both of them very cute...but i think the santa clause is cuter! Ger, it's a small suprise for you cos you are great to lend me your dress...hope you like it. :)

Ok...one more thing...as i was taking photos of these 2 decorations, i realised something...Oops!

Hahahaha...this is my junk food hidden behind my desktop...haha. Cos i scare my office people will laugh at me ma...so i hide it lor...Now i remembered something very funny...There was once (last month) my com was down and he has to help me revive my com, haha...and when he moved my desktop and CPU... ... hahaha...i guess he must be thinking: "Ee yer, how come this girl eat so much...tsk tsk tsk..." LOL. I guess it's time to exercise!

The "big day" was finally OVER!!! I am so happy...was really stressed up for the past 2 weeks...Finally i can take a breath of fresh air. Took lots of photos during the 3 days, but i'm afraid that i can't post all due to some reasons...Ok, these are some of the photos:

Last but not least, Ger, thank you for lending me your dress, it's a last min decision and yet you helped me, THANKS!