What happened to me? Am i happy? Am i unhappy? Am i neutral? I have no feelings at all, no? I really don't understand myself, i need someone to talk to, i need, but, i know i'll not be able to find that "someone"... All gone.

2009 was the past, 2010 is the present and future. My stay in MTI has come to an end, and it really left a deep and memorable impression in my heart and mind... A fruitful short-term journey that i will never forget in my life! Hope will step into the building again in the future... ...

I choose to end the journey of this blog with "My life in Nanyang Polytechnic" though my life journey goes on... ... This is because I hope to dedicate this blog to purely my life journey in NYP and nothing else.

However, since the blog's url is named "my-long-journey", I may one day decide to update my recent doings in this blog again, though I don't know when that will be... ... Till then, see you!

Ok, looks like i have lead the trend of blogging! Omg, i felt that i'm so useful! Lol. And, looks like you girls have read my blog and was touched! That's good. And, there's one thing that i must mention, if you guys realised, i have actually deleted "my precious photo" in the previous post, cos after what i read in ger's email, i was wondering what if people really chance upon my blog?! So i deleted it, since my main purpose is to let my dear friends (you all) see only, not some strangers. Don't blame me k...haha. And ger, if you wanna go back some day tell me k, i have one person haven't talked to (your LO)! Lol. Oh, and xl, though your post was short, but was touching too..esp the pic...nice one. Ok, must keep in contact always. Hope to see you all v v soon! :)

Here are the photos...

And some of the "old photos"...

See what we are showing...a letter "P"... "P" is for? Hahaha.

I know i have posted this photo in one of my earlier entries, but i wanted to post it again cos I HEART THIS PHOTO THE MOST! Really love it a lot!

Ok, my NYP life story ends here... ...

There goes my NYP Graduation Ceremony 2009...had a lot to say, but was way too tired to update yesterday, so i shall update now.

3 years, neither a long nor short period. To me, these 3 years had been spent meaningfully, so much so that i thought it was 30 years! I had really enjoyed myself...especially since year 2, where we were in the Hospitality group. Oh, mentioning about this, i felt great that during yesterday's ceremony, we were so called the "spotlight" cos the speakers kept on mentioning about the hospi students and on top of that, we were the first group to receive our diplomas! Even the papers mentioned about us manz! I'm so glad that i belong to this big family. I feel honoured that i belong to the pioneer batch of hospitality students, and this will be a fact that cannot be changed even 50 years later. Hope that a few years later when i go back to NYP and mentioned that i'm from the pioneer batch of hospitality students, our dear lecturers will still remember us.

Well, why do i say that i had a memorable life in NYP hospi? There are reasons... ... This brings me back to my year 2 of poly life... ...
When i first realised that Hospitality had became a diploma on its own, i was devastated. I went around to ask for help, cos i wanted to go back to Business Management. The first person i went to look for was him, followed by Ms Gan. However, i was told that if i were to revert back to BM, i will be a floating student without a class, i don't want that, so i remained in hospi. 1 week, 1 month...as time passes, i realised that i was so happy mingling with my dear hospi girls and our lecturers. I suddenly felt that life was full of surprises everyday. All thanks to my idol manz! Haha. Below are the list of things that i felt was abnormal, that normal poly students wouldn't do in their poly life:
-We were students during school hours, but after school we became detectives, just to find out if he drives... i can still remember that there was once me and ger were outside staff room while the other 3 went to the carpark! Haha, we were soooo active and silly! But, i love it! Fun! (Ger, all thanks to you for asking him if he drives, if not we will still be part-time detectives until now! Lol)
-Because of projects, we had to visit lots of special places, such as national museum, opera gallery, hotels...and more!
-As hospi students, we experienced a lot of things that others may not have the chance to, such that we were allowed to drink a lot of different kinds of wine in school openly, went for numerous hotel visits where we were allowed to visit the back end as well, went to play golf (omg, this is truly a great experience, cos i wouldn't have the money and chance to play golf on my own manz...i don't think they'll even allow me to enter!), went on cruise and had supper with Alex Choo at 12 midnight and...last but not least, had the chance to have fine dining (ahem, i know i made a fool of myself for making a lot of noise by cutting the duck, but what i felt even more malu was that he said this to me: that's why i didn't choose duck!) Ger, you are correct, 我真的没有脸再丢了!

Other than the above, i also did a lot of foolish and silly actions that even me also feel like laughing when i'm typing now...
-Do you all know what is "skin peel"? Haha...
-Ever tried running into the exam hall and then sit at the wrong seat without realising when people around you has already started laughing?
-Stepping into a specialist diploma class and then ran out after 5 minutes when the lecturer was not looking at us? (Ting, u sure malu with me back then...haha)
-Saw a "giant lizard" in the toilet and then came running out and shouting loudly such that almost all the people in the toilet knows? (end up almost everyone in the lecture group knew because of "word-of-mouth"!)
-Worse is that i everytime went to C406 and asked a lot of stupid questions...ok, some are valid questions, but i really asked a lot, almost everyday went there! The 3 lecturers inside sure had "suffered" alot because of me, but i know that i am such a distinctive student that i hope they will remember me at least for the next 5 years! Hahaha.
Hiaz... i sure is malu.

Year 3 of poly life isn't that meaningfully spent, cos we had lots of projects and FYP. But, we get to know 2 great lecturers, Mr Kumar and Charlie Ng! They were great people to chit-chat with. Miss chit-chatting with them cos didn't get to chat with them during graduation ceremony.

Looking back, i realised that the hospi girls has shared the same memories as me, we had fun together, have breakfast/lunch/dinner and even supper together, did silly things together, gossip together, did most of the projects together, frequently went to J8 to have dessert after friday's last lesson, bug lecturers and malu ourselves together, reaching school early to prepare for presentations together, and last but not least, graduated together! I really treasure this invaluable friendship, it's priceless!

I feel so sad now, that everything's over, that it's the end of the long journey. How i wish everything will not end , but i know it's impossible.

Though i know that most of the people whom i'm going to mention will not see this blog, but still, i must thanks them...(not in order of preference!:) )
-Mr Pang
-Mr Choo
-Mr Wee
-Ms Tay
-Mr Kumar
-Ms Gan
-Mr Ng
-Ms Law
-Mr Yeou

And... ...
The hospi girls! (in order of birth dates)
-Hui Ting
-Germaine
-Hui Ling
-Xuan Li

All the photos will be in my next entry...

Ok guys, 10 more hours to graduation ceremony, the day that i have been looking forward to since 3 years ago. But now, somehow i wish that tomorrow will forever never come, so that i still belong to NYP. I feel both excited and sad, excited cos i can get to meet up all my "all-time favourite" lecturers and my idol and get to step into NYP as a student, sad cos it's gonna be my last time in NYP as a student. Ok, shall update more after the ceremony...

"The One", "The Other One"... haha, these are names that only 4-10 people know what they meant. I miss the days, really miss the great old days... But, after the reunion, i realised that the spark between us had gone, long gone... In turn i felt a stream of awkward when the silence approaches, where it never used to. I guessed that's what people meant by "time will demolish everything, everything, including sparkles..." I guess it will never be the same again... goodbye! 410wl.

I don't wanna face it, i don't wanna blog, i feel like shutting myself up in my little corner where i can hide from anything that falls from the sky, that i feel is adding weight on me all the time... ...

XJ

I am back from the bintan trip a week ago...initially wanted to upload all the photos here, but ended up uploaded on facebook. Wanted to upload here as well, but was way tooooo lazy la. Recently v busy, driving la, uni stuffs, find jobs...all and all... sian. Oh well, After dear tingting reminded me, i realised that i do have a lot of March babies friends! Haha... So, i have to spend a big buck! Hahahaha... So far i know of these dates: 14th, 18th and 20th...so far these are the ones that i keep in touch, actually there are more! Looks like pisces and aquarius are "meant to be" manz...haha! Happy advance birthday to all the March babies!

This is dedicated to someone who didn't even know the existence of this poor blog of mine... ...

6 months has passed, and i can still vividly remember the first day when i reached the office... I was so blur and shy that i felt myself was like a mimosa. You gave me a shocked by telling me that we came from the same "big family". Well, this goes to show that NYP has history ok.

You gave me a good first impression, and this last till today. Though at times you do make me disagree with your actions and mindset, but overall i gave you an A. All these goes to your effort of helping me all these while, especially at times where i was most upset and down. Sometimes i don't dare to look into your eyes especially when i've made a mistake, but you never fail to tolerate my mistakes and clear up all the "mess" for me.

As you all know, good impression is not build up within one day, but months, and even years. We would have been on better terms if she didn't appear. Ok, this is call fate.

Back to present, today was not a wasted day for me cos at least i have the chance to bid farewell to you, though a short and wet journey to the bus stop, but i appreciated it a lot. I think i have fallen deep into it, but i am trying to draw myself out of it. I know i will not be seeing you anytime soon, so for the time being, thank you for all that you've done and all the best to your exams!!!

Before i end my entry, let me upload a few photos that i felt it's worth uploading...

Have you all came across "priceless" waffle? Heehee...i've just eaten that this afternoon!!! Yummy......

This was from Prima Deli, actually nothing special la, just a normal plain waffle...but to me it's very very very very very special!!! Heehee...Only people who understands me will know why!

Today i was very busy the whole day, run here and there like mad girl, one moment need to handle the food, one moment on the phone, one moment print notes, one moment refill water, one moment wash the plates used to hold the food...omg, without dc around was a terror! Heng dc came to my rescue in the afternoon! I will always remember this "辛苦你了"... I can sense that i am smiling like a fool in front of the com now manz... hopeless girl.

I'm officially 20 as of today! I feel i'm so old now...haha. Had a great time for both yesterday and today! Many thanks to those who sent their blessings, regardless of through sms, facebook or in person. I must specially thanked my dear tingting, you made my day special! Thanks my dear! I shall upload some of the photos taken!

See...the happy me with an angbao!!!

Had dinner with my family at 店小二...

My bro helped my took these silly photos!!! LOL!

And... ... My favourite duck!!!

My bro said that this background was nice, so insist of taking this photo! Haha...quite nice actually...

Oh well, there goes my 15 Feb... Have to wait till next year!!!

再过几个小时就是牛年了！！！ 在这里让我祝大家新年快乐，牛年行大运！！！

Firstly, thanks for all the taggings...My friends are GREAT! I love the hospi girls spirit! I am not sad at all la, i only sounded emo...like what tingting said...lol. I'm just wondering why everytime like that, always no outcome de...haha...maybe i'm too stupid for those clever people la...just like today, linking of web pages i also blur...and worse, he don't even understand what i was asking...OMG. I really have this super super big problem of expressing myself. If ever there is this "Self-expression" module, i'm gonna fail for sure! Heng don't have... Ok, hope tomorrow will be fine!

I know, i know, i know, it's impossible, it's impossible. It's just wishful thinking. I lie, to myself, to the people around me. I am hurting myself the most, and i get nothing out of it. Approach? A no for me. If the last thing that i want to know, it is the answer. The feelings that i had 3 years ago is coming back, and the strength is comparable. But this time round, it's gonna be a "sure lose" case. I know i will lose the bet, lose this game again. I don't want to be involved in this game, but i am sinking in it, and worse, i am getting deeper and deeper. I hate it, but i have no choice. A sickening action can catch my attention. Sickening. Why? Out of all the whole wide world, why? I should open myself to more choices, better ones. But, this is me, once i'm stuck onto something, that's it. It's getting late and i should stop. Hope it's gonna be fine tomorrow.

Ok, this is the 2nd post of the day...this has gt something to do with Christmas too...though ours is a small office, but we do exchange gifts too! and i really love the gifts lots lots! See see...

Handphone holder! Cute!

This chocolate is very "Atas" manz...

And it really taste GREAT!

Teddy bear coin bank! Cutez...

And... ... last but not least... all of us get this! So special and so cute! Somemore it's personalised! Thanks thanks my 大哥!

This is a memo clip! And it's from Takashimaya, so i guess it's rather "Atas" too...

The most surprise part was that there was this once where i asked my 大哥 where he bought this cute teddy bear memo clip that he sticked on his CPU (cos its magnetic) and he said that was given to him by his friends... And now he get this for us as X'mas gifts...haha, i must have given him some 灵感...Hahahaha...

Today is Christmas... This yr i received the most gifts...i must say that i LOVE all the gifts! Thanks everyone...We had our X'mas celebration last Sat and we had lots of food and fun! Especially the "Angel and Mortal" game, which was fun just that we were culeless of the rules and complicated it...lol...ok, let the photos tell you the story of the night!

Ok, these are all that i can upload...i am so lazy to upload all...the rest refer to my yuexin's photo bucket...